ekspress something.....

i need to ekspress something.....what i feel right now.....sad mad happy tired....sometimes i feel hard to ekspress my feeling. i dont know maybe i dont use my heart often...things come and go...but i feel flat... you know, bored.... sometimes i feel worried about how can i survive in the big world??? you know i m just boni !! i m not dion who can play guitar superbly so he can make a money from ....or vidy who have many connection so he can get many job... i know every people have own problems....maybe i seems uncofortable with my skill....i am just a little woried...because in my 23 years old i never make my self proud of...i m just a boy without a skill ...at least i dont know my skill yet.... a little confuse.....when i look to another people i feel ashame to my self......i feel weak...but i should keep my spirit and keep saying to my self thats there is a time when i am can be on top ....i dont know but it feel a long until the situation changes....but thanks to God give me many friend to share with...new friend come and make my spirit up....but i have to explore a lot....to prove my self to the world...to prove that...i am good...may God help me...!!!!!!